Remembering mine affliction and my misery, the wormwood and the gall. My soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me. This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. (Lamentations 3:19-21)
People think depression is about being sad. They think it’s just when you feel down. It’s not. It’s like a darkness that creeps over you and fills you slowly until it's taken all color from the world. It drains all your emotions. It takes everything from you, it takes you from you and leaves you feeling hollow and numb. It’s not sadness, it’s not anger, it’s hopelessness. Imagine waking up and there being no color. Walking outside and feeling no wind. Eating a meal and tasting nothing. Holding someone and feeling completely alone at the same time. When you’re depressed, it’s not a bad mood. It’s a numb, empty, hollowness that seems to never leave. It’s feeling alone in a room full of people. You feel like there’s no hope left.
If you feel like this right now, if you have no hope left, borrow some of mine because its hope that saves you, it's hope that's gets you out of bed but it's you who must fight. Tell your family and friends that you don't need someone to save you, you just need a little support and patience while you save yourself. I remember exactly what it felt like to lose all hope. Although it was one of the loneliest most frightening times of my life, it was also the most inspiring. Losing hope can actually be a great motivator, loosing hope can spark action. If you are still searching for someone to save you, go to your bathroom and look in your mirror because that person, is YOU! If you have lost hope, please feel your hopelessness with an honest, courageous heart and see where it takes you. Today could be your turning point.
